It's time to start again with my blog, after a long absence. Basically I think that having a blog is a masochistic adventure with your emotions to share with other people, you do not want to share everything, but at the same time you hate to be unnoticed, so there you go. The adventure is then that you are trying to steer a course that will give you satisfaction. OK, I am in Bali now, enjoying my holidays. At the same time I am wondering what it means to have holidays. That question s connected with my upcoming event of being a pensionado. Let me first start with the pensionado thing. It means that you are not needed by your company anymore, but the most disappointing thing is that society sees you as too old and at the same time too young to have pension. All these contradiction result in a state of depression. A human being is a social being after all. The depression may be overcome by making pleasure and that is something I have to learn since in the last years I have been working and slowly but surely working became a pleasure. Yes, I discovered that I derived a kind of self-fullfillment out of my work. So, now I sould learn that I cheated myself with that isn't it?
Well, I am in Bali, but the other odd thing is that after two years living in a Hotel I am living with my family again. I have to adjust my life to the wishes of others, make myself an object of enjoyment for others. Wow, not easy, but also the others must adjust to me I guess. So the process goes on.
Tomorrow I will write more.......